living by accident

The more I think about it…

admin — Tue, 18 Nov 2008 23:53:19 +0000

I’ve had a lot of time to think during the past week or so. Some things good, others bad, a lot of it annoying, but things that I really needed to sit down and ponder while I had a minute to do so. About friends and family, relationships, religion, work, school, you name it… (more…)

What we think vs. Who we are

admin — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 08:56:08 +0000

I’m going to go ahead and preempt this statement with a reminder that it’s nearly 3am, I’ve been up since 8:30am and that was after going to bed somewhere around, oh, I don’t know, 4am or so. So this might not make sense, but do your best to follow along anyway…

This whole process of thought goes along completely with the last couple blurbs that I posted. I was charging through life, so gung ho for this plan I had concocted, but this plan wasn’t working. It was a great start, but the follow through just wasn’t there. (more…)

As God moves, I move with Him…

admin — Thu, 13 Nov 2008 22:47:39 +0000

So the strangest thing happened. But before I tell you about it, it’s going to require a little back story I think:

As some of you may remember, I gave myself a time limit to date. I had kind of tried to do things on my own terms, my own time, earlier in the year. Not just with dating, but with most things in life. While I never really had a relationship, I had gone on a few dates and such with a really great girl up north, but none the less, I was still on the search for one and it just wasn’t the right time. It seemed like the easiest thing to have self-control over and, in all honesty, it worked. (more…)

In perpetual motion…

admin — Thu, 30 Oct 2008 21:05:48 +0000

It’s been a month since I tried to set myself on the path back to where I need to be. I have to be honest, it wasn’t easy, but I think that time away helped me to open my eyes up to all the things I had missed. Somehow I developed this hardened view of my church, which I carried from new church to new church in my time away, and I don’t know where it came from. But I went back. (more…)

On starting over…

admin — Fri, 26 Sep 2008 07:23:51 +0000

If you haven’t noticed, there aren’t any posts left on this page. The past is the past, the future is the future, and it’s all out of my hands. Not that I’ve forgotten everything, but I’m moving away from everything. I’m putting it all behind me. Giving it up to God to let Him sort it out. I’ve learned my lessons. I’ve grown to become a completely different person than I used to be and I’m laying it all down at His feet to do with as He pleases. Not that I ever strayed that far, but I did let my frustrations with the church take over my love and completeness that I found in God.

I guess this deserves, in some sense anyway, a bit of an explanation. (more…)